I’m over him!! Or maybe not completely. I don’t really even want to admit that there are still some twinges of anger left.
I was walking the dogs yesterday and started thinking about the mortgage. I was left with the house and the house payment that used to take both of us working to cover each month. His name is still on that mortgage because I have to refinance to get his name off of it. I would love for his name to be gone from that mortgage, especially since I have struggled for two years now to successfully pay the bill each month by myself.
Then my thoughts wandered to what he and his new wife are doing. Are they happy? Is he still slumped over in a stupor each night? Does she drink too? I hope he is still drinking. The thoughts came tumbling over themselves in my mind and for a few minutes I was unable to stop them. Then I wrestled myself away from those stupid thoughts and shook myself hard. But the anger remained for a while longer longer. How dare he remarry? How could he throw away our love so easily?
I’m truly happy now. Perhaps happier than I’ve ever been in my life. So why do I still get twinges of anger?
